If life had followed a neater script, maybe I would have met someone at a bar, stumbled into a whirlwind romance, and found myself staring at a positive pregnancy test a few months later. But nothing about my life has ever followed a neat script... In case you missed it, read Becoming a Father – Part 1 – The Father Before Fatherhood first.
Searching for a different kind of journey
Permission, Please
To become a father as a gay man is to choose a path paved with paperwork and prayer, science and sacrifice, miracles and mathematics. It's to choose intention over accident, faith over convenience. It's to stand in a world built for others and say, "I will find a way anyway.”
Straight couples get to call it a surprise.
Gay men call it a legal process.
Choosing a path less travelled with purpose
Application for Parenthood
Fifteen years ago, having children through surrogacy in South Africa wasn’t a matter of longing alone. It meant paperwork, psychological evaluations, medical reports, affidavits, legal contracts, and, ultimately, a High Court order.
It meant proving that you were good enough, stable enough, solvent enough to be trusted with life.
It meant standing before strangers and justifying your dream.
I don’t say that with bitterness. Only truth.
Because while South Africa was – and remains – one of the more progressive countries in the world when it comes to surrogacy, the system was built with gates, not gardens. Gates to protect surrogates, certainly. Gates to ensure that children were born into secure homes, undoubtedly.
But gates nonetheless.
And gates are designed to separate. To allow some through while keeping others out.
Facing the barriers, holding onto hope
Proving It, Anyway
The irony was never lost on me. A straight couple could have a child after a chance encounter, a forgotten name, over a hazy weekend. No background check. No psychological screening. No financial vetting. No interrogation of motives. No judge weighing up their fitness to parent.
But for me?
For people like me?
We had to plead our case – and wait for permission.
And still, I didn’t resent it.
Because the truth is, when you want something badly enough – when it matters enough – you'll jump through every hoop. You'll fill out every form. You'll walk into every courtroom with your head held high, not because the process is just but because the outcome is worth it.
And it was.
Every blood test. Every legal consultation. Every form signed and counter-signed. Each step was part of the long, deliberate journey that eventually led me to my children.
But it gave me something else, too.
It taught me how discrimination – even the well-meaning kind – quietly persists, woven into the fabric of systems designed to look neutral. It taught me that while progress is real, it's also fragile. And it taught me that fighting for your family, even before your family exists, is an act of love so profound it reshapes who you are.
Love proven through every challenge faced
Home, At Last
The surrogacy path was not a detour. It was the pilgrimage.
The beginning of a quiet revolution – building a family in a world that still hasn’t quite figured out how to hold families like mine.
And it was the start of the greatest love story of my life.
Because in the end:
It doesn’t matter whose womb they came from.
It doesn’t matter whose genes they carry.
It doesn’t matter how many hoops you jumped through to reach them.
When your child is placed in your arms – by nature, by law, or by grace – you don’t feel the weight of the bureaucracy.
You feel destiny.
You feel home.
Where love transcends all beginnings
Signed, Sealed… Loved
And in that moment, every fight, every form, every sleepless night fades into the footnotes.
All that matters is the beating heart you’re cradling – and the one inside your chest that somehow, impossibly, is beating bigger than ever before.
Their names are Matthew, Michael, Willow, and Leo. And they are, without a doubt, the greatest gifts I’ve ever been given.
Still to come: Becoming a Father – Part 3 – The Gifts: Matthew, Michael, Willow, and Leo
